Hi all,
Read below, give me feed back, ask questions, whatever. I'm so happy! Ok, here we go.....
I don't know if you could hear me or not. Don't worry about it, everything is fine. I'm having a real hard day but I think I am figuring it out and I think I'm doing better. I will say this in bullet points cause I think you will get what I'm saying. If you don't, ask me questions and hopefully I'll be awake to answer you. If not know I am ok. What you and I need, and maybe more humans and maybe humanity as a whole need this. I'm gonna stop talking in we now and just speak to me. What I need is to stop overthinking cause for me, to think in circles, fucks me up. For me I need to rest, and I'm about to. For me, I need to calm down. I need to remain calm, and I need to stop doing all the things I do. I am confusing others to the point of confusing me and my world is falling apart, in every way it can. What I need for me is to love myself, to fix myself, cause as we all seem to know, but still do, is that what we need most is love. What we need most is to know we are ok, what I think we need is to just know we are ok. When we don't know why we aren't ok we, I, make bad choices, bad decisions, and we/I start to loose our shit. I believe that is why this world is going to hell, or maybe that is just my perception. My theory though is that at the end of the day, we are all just humans, and there is nothing wrong with that. We are all doing our best. We are all scared about something, we are all living in our own private hell's. Is hell's a word? I believe we are all just doing what it is we have to do to make our own shit better. I believe this is why those who have faith seem so much happier, and some genuinely are, at least most of the time. I believe, as of now, and maybe I'll forget which is why I'm writing this out, I believe that once we find our own inner "god/goddess/whatever human word you want to put on this theory of mine, once you love yourself, once you fix your own shit, once you slow down and think it out logically. Once you figure you out you are able to help others fix themselves. As a species, my theory goes, once we can all do that, once we as the dominate species of this beautiful place we call earth, once we can figure that out, all at once or not, once we as humans can do that, we can help to heal the damage we have done and continue to do to this poor place. Once we figure it out, once we grasp it all, one we learn, I believe that we can and will fix this place. I also just now believe that I figured out my own personal meaning of life. And even if that meaning is wrong, so what? It's still a good theory. So, in my theory, if we can as a collective hive figure this shit out, if we can do that, if we can all work together, perhaps we could fix earth. Maybe we can save ourselves, maybe we can have everything we have ever wanted and maybe we can do all I just said. Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe I'm right and we don't do this and we kill our planet. Maybe that is the reason we have this planet and maybe I'm right. Maybe not, who knows, but if I'm right, wouldn't that be awesome? Fuck yeah, I'm pumped. I'm gonna fix me. I'm going to start there. I hope to succeed, I hope we all do. I hope. God damn, I am so happy I figured that out. Wow. Listen to yourself, listen to each other, love and be loved. Just because you think logically doesn't mean you are cold, it means you are using logic. And just because you use logic, it doesn't mean that you don't have emotions and are a cold person, it just means you are human. You may still get frustrated, but what are you frustrated about ultimately? Your frustrated that you are having to deal with frustration, with others, with what ever it is that is frustrating you. And just because you may react poorly, or you feel overwhelmed doesn't mean you are a bad person, it just means you are human.
I feel great.
I'm short, love yourself, be good to yourself. Even shorter? Go love. Love.
Read below, give me feed back, ask questions, whatever. I'm so happy! Ok, here we go.....
I don't know if you could hear me or not. Don't worry about it, everything is fine. I'm having a real hard day but I think I am figuring it out and I think I'm doing better. I will say this in bullet points cause I think you will get what I'm saying. If you don't, ask me questions and hopefully I'll be awake to answer you. If not know I am ok. What you and I need, and maybe more humans and maybe humanity as a whole need this. I'm gonna stop talking in we now and just speak to me. What I need is to stop overthinking cause for me, to think in circles, fucks me up. For me I need to rest, and I'm about to. For me, I need to calm down. I need to remain calm, and I need to stop doing all the things I do. I am confusing others to the point of confusing me and my world is falling apart, in every way it can. What I need for me is to love myself, to fix myself, cause as we all seem to know, but still do, is that what we need most is love. What we need most is to know we are ok, what I think we need is to just know we are ok. When we don't know why we aren't ok we, I, make bad choices, bad decisions, and we/I start to loose our shit. I believe that is why this world is going to hell, or maybe that is just my perception. My theory though is that at the end of the day, we are all just humans, and there is nothing wrong with that. We are all doing our best. We are all scared about something, we are all living in our own private hell's. Is hell's a word? I believe we are all just doing what it is we have to do to make our own shit better. I believe this is why those who have faith seem so much happier, and some genuinely are, at least most of the time. I believe, as of now, and maybe I'll forget which is why I'm writing this out, I believe that once we find our own inner "god/goddess/whatever human word you want to put on this theory of mine, once you love yourself, once you fix your own shit, once you slow down and think it out logically. Once you figure you out you are able to help others fix themselves. As a species, my theory goes, once we can all do that, once we as the dominate species of this beautiful place we call earth, once we can figure that out, all at once or not, once we as humans can do that, we can help to heal the damage we have done and continue to do to this poor place. Once we figure it out, once we grasp it all, one we learn, I believe that we can and will fix this place. I also just now believe that I figured out my own personal meaning of life. And even if that meaning is wrong, so what? It's still a good theory. So, in my theory, if we can as a collective hive figure this shit out, if we can do that, if we can all work together, perhaps we could fix earth. Maybe we can save ourselves, maybe we can have everything we have ever wanted and maybe we can do all I just said. Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe I'm right and we don't do this and we kill our planet. Maybe that is the reason we have this planet and maybe I'm right. Maybe not, who knows, but if I'm right, wouldn't that be awesome? Fuck yeah, I'm pumped. I'm gonna fix me. I'm going to start there. I hope to succeed, I hope we all do. I hope. God damn, I am so happy I figured that out. Wow. Listen to yourself, listen to each other, love and be loved. Just because you think logically doesn't mean you are cold, it means you are using logic. And just because you use logic, it doesn't mean that you don't have emotions and are a cold person, it just means you are human. You may still get frustrated, but what are you frustrated about ultimately? Your frustrated that you are having to deal with frustration, with others, with what ever it is that is frustrating you. And just because you may react poorly, or you feel overwhelmed doesn't mean you are a bad person, it just means you are human.
I feel great.
I'm short, love yourself, be good to yourself. Even shorter? Go love. Love.