I know.
I'm not cooL with this.
A good part of this is me. My interests have grown into new areas and I really don't need the negativity. It's gone from a fun-time asset to distraction. The things I always enjoyed about this place I no longer do. So I'm at a point where I'm deciding how many more hours of my life to anon message board to dedicate. A kick ass anon message board.
We will become nostalgia within months.
We've lost too many members for various reasons. Decided they don't want to contribute.. we're moving backwards in content, creativity, originality and membership.
Times like this I'd hit up other boards and spam our links for newbs in dramatic fashion, I pump up the place with my alter egos.......... THE MAIN REASON I OPENED THIS PLACE, to troll. Times like these I'd add content images or start drama to stoke. There are many ways to breathe life into these places, not easy and I feel I had a knack for it, still do, but Im disenchanted with it all. It's thankless situation going on over here and nowhere near as twisty and alluring as the early days.
There's good members here and we have this place built up to move forward...
Nobody wants anything to do w/ the Mayhem hacks, BF stores or helping create content or help populate the place... Why am I here again? What am I doing this for? Not money or status. So you can just rage on each other? I'm just some cool guy bringing the goodness like Willy fkn' Wonka... Believe me... I fully know what I signed up for, and had no problem producing the kind of members and content that was expected/invited. I've lived the forum owner life. I've got stories.
I remember being told by a forum owner of 517 Underground, one of the few who didn't ban me back in 2006 that I was going to go start my own forum... I knew what people wanted and how it was gonna run... he said.. "Why? It's a waste of time and money".. I of course did my thing, and we were one of the better, but I see what he meant now.. Do I need a hug? Yes. Always, but that isn't bringing us new members or threads that go past page 2 outside of Meltdown.
I need to pay up and bring the webmaster here soon after 2 long years for some updates/add ons... for the first time I don't feel like putting another dime towards this place.
Notice people getting banned over the last year? That me stopping to give a fuck. Full blown anti BF.... why you here? So I helped Garraty, No One, Kirk, Holliday walk. Now we got members here chasing people off. Leaving them allows them to chase off more... this is how BF 1 slowed and closed.
So lately, my mindset has swerved from hoarding members and growing... to - why am I giving certain assholes a platform to speak, gain status, complain and contribute nothing. They'll just end up at TBC jumping to conclusions and filling in the blanks. I've recently gone over there and ohhhh boy do they have all the answers. None of them are banned here. Swing thru lol. I have no clue on how to block VPNs and all that shit. They think I'm here all day/night pulling levers. A cause, a target, a reason to belong. They just need something to bitch about there. I don't mind.
FYI... I am a republican. I've stayed unbiased between the two political gangs that came here years ago as to keep the membership thriving. It's all about posters people. Quality content or a forum ends... sometimes my past decisions have leaned toward certain members and I was automatically a 'liberal'... No, that was me keeping things fair, balanced. I absolutely never leaned in a direction here because of political interests. Notice I don't talk politics? Blah.
There's a side to me that really doesn't want to shut down... What's got me fully annoyed is losing members lately. WTF? What more can I do? I've realized I have no more time or desire to replace them and I'll be damned watching this place fall asleep and fail.
I could go on... not into explaining myself.
As of this moment my options...
A) We close. Fast. Like ripping off a band-aid.
B) I sell it, you Zelle it. I transfer it all, set you up (there's a lot) and deal with my babee online, in anothers hands.
C) I forget was C was for...
D) For the sake of you people, I'll keep it running and step out 'til 2027... leaving a mod free forum.
E) Everybody dies.