There's something about me that they put into the "too hard basket".. But amnesia obscures that trait from my own identification. All I know is that they tried and tried and either their technology got heaps better and I'm total amnesia, so they're still present.... or they slapped a pinpoint on an app for me saying "human retard psycho motherfucker"... like a San Francisco ShitApp.
I think they have left me alone because of some aapect of my biology that they can't completely change or erase... or probe my butthole easily without a violent altercation.
All my thoughts came out as absolute gibberish. Each time I tried... like I had been intentionally muted by a weapon. I knew where I was and awake and what I was trying to convey, but I was prevented.
That 18 year old's dream had an amnesia aspect to it, as all before it had. I ran down the 1800's steep staircase so fast to tell anyone I could before I couldn't what had happened that I tumbled down on elbows and knees, sprung up, and rushed a surprised family member who subsequently slapped me because they thought I was on drugs.
Last time I had the abduction nightmare I was 18. In my "nightmare" I kicked one of the two in the head and they made angry looking faces as they trying to grab my feet. I distinctly remember feeling like that were amazed and pissed off that they couldn't abduct me easily. In my dream, I was losing the will to fight and that was the last time I ever prayed for help... but they ran out my door like a grenade was about to go off, and I've only had one encounter since.
I was regularly shown terrifying sights in the night sky as a young kid. I saw an orangish red orb at the age of six outside my bedroom in a clearing and screamed for my parents to protect me. When I pointed at, one parent couldn’t see anything and the other made a horrified face, then snap, saw nothing as it gradually dimmed. That was before any of us were told about orbs or "greys" (which I had reoccurring nightmares about being taken from my bedroom). Way before the movie Communion came out.