Dunno what happens in your fucked up dreams, dreaming of her all the time, how long is it now you had a crush on her ?its been quite a while, must be awful to be so crazy about her that your not able to leave her alone and have to ruin all the threads with your pathetic unrequited love. Pathetic that you will never know a real woman, such a fucking freak you had to settle for second best, so has your monkey got teeth tramp boy ?
no, i am afraid of water the first seconds but after it is rather difficult to get me out of the water .. i enjoy it more than i fear it, youth trauma.. i guess .. and screaming kids in a swimming pool/hall i could not handle, the shreeking, horrible .. but i could and i would not be afraid if extreme heat .. sure.
seeying from your age .. how would you compare the world, now and 20 years ago? better or worse globally?