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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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Glad you only "considered". Just remember, you miss out on everything else once you're gone. When life gives you shit, remember sometimes it comes with corn and peanuts :Grin3:
 

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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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Suicide is NOT an option

No matter the circumstances I would ALWAYS choose to fight I will NOT run away from life....neither should you!!
 

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do not care much .. may get injection needles and start to shoot around .. untill i'm happy cos nothing moves on .. all is going backward .. thanks holland and russian intelligence ..
 

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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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Glad you only "considered". Just remember, you miss out on everything else once you're gone. When life gives you shit, remember sometimes it comes with corn and peanuts :Grin3:
yeah i know but all complicated and i feel like mutilated ..and not in the mood for much .. makes me want to boil up a spoon or pull up stuff and inject and go high and i'll see how high i'll turn out to be in the end .. at least holland and russia will know their own involvement .. thx to loss of much .. so i wouldn't even care ..feels like i'm at the end of the street.. dead.
 

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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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Glad you only "considered". Just remember, you miss out on everything else once you're gone. When life gives you shit, remember sometimes it comes with corn and peanuts :Grin3:
yeah i know but all complicated and i feel like mutilated ..and not in the mood for much .. makes me want to boil up a spoon or pull up stuff and inject and go high and i'll see how high i'll turn out to be in the end .. at least holland and russia will know their own involvement .. thx to loss of much .. so i wouldn't even care ..feels like i'm at the end of the street.. dead.

I know what will cheer you up....

:Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto:

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Dont go fuckin' around with them needles!
 

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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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Glad you only "considered". Just remember, you miss out on everything else once you're gone. When life gives you shit, remember sometimes it comes with corn and peanuts :Grin3:
yeah i know but all complicated and i feel like mutilated ..and not in the mood for much .. makes me want to boil up a spoon or pull up stuff and inject and go high and i'll see how high i'll turn out to be in the end .. at least holland and russia will know their own involvement .. thx to loss of much .. so i wouldn't even care ..feels like i'm at the end of the street.. dead.

I know what will cheer you up....

:Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto:

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Dont go fuckin' around with them needles!
i know but i feel like i have to ... feels like i wanna take off for a while but i end up not caring nearing stages of od, had that with xtc once too and got even witnesses to it .. 12 or 15 xtc's in a night .. they had to carry me out, one puff o' weed after they threw me in the car and i was murdered couldn't move, nothing untill i cleared up suddenly lol .. it's when things go bad i need my high .. but thx tho.
 

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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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Suicide is NOT an option

No matter the circumstances I would ALWAYS choose to fight I will NOT run away from life....neither should you!!
it's basically not caring abt life and i'll see what happens .. when i smack into the wall so it shall be .. is not the first time in my life or that i even end up in ER to pump my stomach empty or get me trough in er last was 2014 .. coma and appt near dead and that's what i may find out again .. how far i can go .. dutch russian fuckfaces decided to destroy my life over info i did not want to share .. now i leak leak or intend to really leak to destroy perhaps others their live's someday since nothing works in belgium all is filthed, corrupted, pple hate me etc etc thx to slander of ru and holland .. so seems i'm stuck here and terrible memories in belgium so life is done .. and from now they can shove their top secret military experiment all up their asses .. the only thing i want is my steps .. if not i wont care like now .. and a lot of online slander returned as offline slander and stingin, probing, messing around and holland, russia still stinging for info abt ayman al zawahiri ... next to this shat up military experiment as i see and call it ... next to job loss .. income loss i can't ever reproduce .. means house gone, mustang or camaro 1967 - 69 gone all dreams destroyed .. kay a female friend gone, snegorushka a female friend gone and many others .. returns as 0.0 friends online and refute the offliners bcos of that and spying too .. so i'm done here .. just feels like shooting up once in a while to more often and from there one i may want to get higher .. that's what i'm after .. not running from life it's just being indiffirent .. holland was even trying to lock me up .. i'm even going to have to get pple executed or liqudated with or abt sensitive information .. even female friends like snego or this kay i may begin to leak or instigate what's lost turns useless and those are pple infatuated with intelligence or pple whom turned against me and hate me "whatever" so for all i care i fuck em off into isis as kgb or aivd spy as locked up person .. damn, even a 8yo i may get kidnapped in name of islam abt something ... during lock up i may get upset and speak that out a lot of it .. and for snego and kay loss of female friends i am even willing to start a war in holland with islam someday or all over russia or europe ... cia knows .. and my steps are going to keep me alive and at peace ... steps is all i care for .. and their military expiremnt on my identitu shall be exposed even in islam but i'm calm now and i wont care abt the results .. and stealing all my contacts online and cuteys .. to make me feel isolated is wrong .. than i turn a bastard and than i want to get high and higher untill i fall asleep or pass out ... that's where it dangerous combined with the fact i feel superbored and pressure abt bin laden info to enrich some rob bertholee, maria zakharova, pepijn, fabio and apparently jorrit faassen and a bunch fake muslima's to make me infiltrant exceeding my own privacy.. dutch russian intelligence ... fuckups and not able to think outside the box but ok, interpol knows and some id's too and if i 'd die by suicide during getting high, no one shall miss me but some pple that may have needed me may start an investigation to the known id's and i wont give a fuck .. they killed so much in my life .. and i get sick of it .. and a few cuteys have killed the contracts from my end with holland and russia .. a russian dame whom got interfered as friend kicked kgb and gru out of my life and a certain kay kicked the contract with holland out from my side .. wasn't even a spy yet .. but refute their offers each female friend they chased off has chased me off from holland and russia and "oh, we've lost a top spy in him" did i even care ... i know much more than average on espionage for a dumbass cos books and tricks grandfather from a past and other manuals from the net like in the past anarchist cookbook, small explosives (illegal on net), little things i tried myself even with chems, fighting, grappling, wrestling and pistol manuals like a boy scout and cos my father taught me that interest of the military ... now i'm like, fuck you all .. they rape me in my own country .. even death threats to shoot me but ok that's that, need to find out from where since a while but i wont care .. and they come to ask me "to help out their boys" in holland or afghanistan or iraq .. oh my else you need to make me lose all and everything .. esle i need to come over and cut your cat it's troath and demand YOUR apology for me doing that to your kitty.. do you see any logic in it?
they can shove their "pink panter" up their ass .. and disrupting me and dames whew .. income i wont see back ... the life i lead now is the life of a drunk wanker or often drunk .. in a way .. thank you too belgium as to intelligence and military crap next time i need a fucken SCUD sustem in my garden if an F-16 flies over my roof few times a year .. to honour me and honour something... what can i fucken do with it .. how humiliative ..
 

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No hope with out dope - -- - - - - -

Dope and needles are two different things lol. I encourage lots of dope lol :SmokeBreak3:

I remember in school, they gave us bumper stickers that said "no hope in dope", we tore the "no" off lol.
 

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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
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Glad you only "considered". Just remember, you miss out on everything else once you're gone. When life gives you shit, remember sometimes it comes with corn and peanuts :Grin3:
yeah i know but all complicated and i feel like mutilated ..and not in the mood for much .. makes me want to boil up a spoon or pull up stuff and inject and go high and i'll see how high i'll turn out to be in the end .. at least holland and russia will know their own involvement .. thx to loss of much .. so i wouldn't even care ..feels like i'm at the end of the street.. dead.

I know what will cheer you up....

:Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto:

:Grin3:

Dont go fuckin' around with them needles!
i know but i feel like i have to ... feels like i wanna take off for a while but i end up not caring nearing stages of od, had that with xtc once too and got even witnesses to it .. 12 or 15 xtc's in a night .. they had to carry me out, one puff o' weed after they threw me in the car and i was murdered couldn't move, nothing untill i cleared up suddenly lol .. it's when things go bad i need my high .. but thx tho.

Right on man, wish ya the best. Im all for the green. Some music, or camping, goes a long way. Just need to find your high man.

Suicide only hurts those that love you. My mom was a suicide, though I had clues of possible murder.
 

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No hope with out dope - -- - - - - -

Dope and needles are two different things lol. I encourage lots of dope lol :SmokeBreak3:

I remember in school, they gave us bumper stickers that said "no hope in dope", we tore the "no" off lol.

We use to get the "In And Out Burger" sticker and remove the B and the last R - - - - - - -
 

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I could take this two ways, that either you feel alone, or that you are enjoying some peaceful solitude away from all the fucks lol.
Rigor nailed it

It’s representative of being in limbo
no shit, i lost all .. i was mainly considering suicide again by OD and go high and fuck off ... but to leak in islam instead of helping stinking russian and dutch intelligence who took all ... job loss, female friends etc .. i feel like fucking ruining it all and everything around me cos life sucks ...
images

Glad you only "considered". Just remember, you miss out on everything else once you're gone. When life gives you shit, remember sometimes it comes with corn and peanuts :Grin3:
yeah i know but all complicated and i feel like mutilated ..and not in the mood for much .. makes me want to boil up a spoon or pull up stuff and inject and go high and i'll see how high i'll turn out to be in the end .. at least holland and russia will know their own involvement .. thx to loss of much .. so i wouldn't even care ..feels like i'm at the end of the street.. dead.

I know what will cheer you up....

:Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto::Perfecto:

:Grin3:

Dont go fuckin' around with them needles!
i know but i feel like i have to ... feels like i wanna take off for a while but i end up not caring nearing stages of od, had that with xtc once too and got even witnesses to it .. 12 or 15 xtc's in a night .. they had to carry me out, one puff o' weed after they threw me in the car and i was murdered couldn't move, nothing untill i cleared up suddenly lol .. it's when things go bad i need my high .. but thx tho.

More people care about you than you know.....it makes me sad to read this suicide stuff :-(
 

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mein neger stand strong like many.. :) soon a little trip to heaven for me .. needle up ! teeth on the belt .. vein thick and shoot all that good shit up (legal combo i am going to try, but it's dangerous but the best dame ever and best fix) and fentanyl i want to try too .. lost too much in belgium and life is done here (fucking intelligence from holland, russia, took it all, ruined it all and i await a punishment from holland cos i didn't want to infiltrate against skinheads, mocro and or isis and not talk abt ayman al zawahiri for spicing rob bertholee his anus with 25 million and some cunt i found being a spy whom i can fuck off if locked up) and now i feel like junking around after removal of my rfid .. destroy my existence and turn old school junkie or dead, walking zombie ... party untill you die and if you die you shall go happy and sedated .. 90's lingo .. cos life in belgium is simple and i'll spell it "d e s t r o y e d" and blocked abt friendships, a lot of money theo took of off me and revenge shall come .. cia knows my steps and my motive for freedom and some female friends whatsoever shall come back as i want and knew them or they'll end up exposed when locked up too.. and i get quite upset at many .. period.
keep strong mate, if i'd end up locked up or commit suicide "till walhalla" cos there's its better than here on this pile of shit we call earth ..
 

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mein neger stand strong like many.. :) soon a little trip to heaven for me .. needle up ! teeth on the belt .. vein thick and shoot all that good shit up (legal combo i am going to try, but it's dangerous but the best dame ever and best fix) and fentanyl i want to try too .. lost too much in belgium and life is done here (fucking intelligence from holland, russia, took it all, ruined it all and i await a punishment from holland cos i didn't want to infiltrate against skinheads, mocro and or isis and not talk abt ayman al zawahiri for spicing rob bertholee his anus with 25 million and some cunt i found being a spy whom i can fuck off if locked up) and now i feel like junking around after removal of my rfid .. destroy my existence and turn old school junkie or dead, walking zombie ... party untill you die and if you die you shall go happy and sedated .. 90's lingo .. cos life in belgium is simple and i'll spell it "d e s t r o y e d" and blocked abt friendships, a lot of money theo took of off me and revenge shall come .. cia knows my steps and my motive for freedom and some female friends whatsoever shall come back as i want and knew them or they'll end up exposed when locked up too.. and i get quite upset at many .. period.
keep strong mate, if i'd end up locked up or commit suicide "till walhalla" cos there's its better than here on this pile of shit we call earth ..

Why are you unhappy bro? Life’s short anyway, fuck it, be happy
 

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mein neger stand strong like many.. :) soon a little trip to heaven for me .. needle up ! teeth on the belt .. vein thick and shoot all that good shit up (legal combo i am going to try, but it's dangerous but the best dame ever and best fix) and fentanyl i want to try too .. lost too much in belgium and life is done here (fucking intelligence from holland, russia, took it all, ruined it all and i await a punishment from holland cos i didn't want to infiltrate against skinheads, mocro and or isis and not talk abt ayman al zawahiri for spicing rob bertholee his anus with 25 million and some cunt i found being a spy whom i can fuck off if locked up) and now i feel like junking around after removal of my rfid .. destroy my existence and turn old school junkie or dead, walking zombie ... party untill you die and if you die you shall go happy and sedated .. 90's lingo .. cos life in belgium is simple and i'll spell it "d e s t r o y e d" and blocked abt friendships, a lot of money theo took of off me and revenge shall come .. cia knows my steps and my motive for freedom and some female friends whatsoever shall come back as i want and knew them or they'll end up exposed when locked up too.. and i get quite upset at many .. period.
keep strong mate, if i'd end up locked up or commit suicide "till walhalla" cos there's its better than here on this pile of shit we call earth ..

Why are you unhappy bro? Life’s short anyway, fuck it, be happy

tagged with rfid and v2k ... old military project i was in my neighbours know .. ... or experiment ... you could say rather abused and leaks abt intelligence vs al qaeda and or isis .. and old convo's from middle east in 2005 they wanted to know ... lost all as holland russia tries to upset me and get me to talking and now i may end up locked up for leaking i even have to indicate some spy who was involved cos steps and it's time to pay me out and off period .. rid them bio's answers abt few female friends .. and a ticket cos i don't talk to intelligence and refute and laden seemed to have left a riddle .. or analogies like riddles .. but i wont look at it or study it .. and refure to help and leak in public and to imam's they are after me to recruit me into spy with that knowledge like a "pandora's box" to get easy access to the east like a trip i once had to do to afghanistan and syria but they forbade me to go later to syria as traveller for a war i never expected to be happennig today and that was via laden his office or so .. do not know and don't want to talk, think about it cos my device is filled with military and or high leveled ip's .. so i'm basically tapped again by holland aivd, mivd, mareechaussee, even prisma from fbi, interpol, mi5-6,kgbu, gru they all seem to come and look .. but i don't care and they fucked up all around me but that was mainly holland and russia ... so they destroy my life and once they find out i can be of use they try to sweet talk me with code talking over internet articles with holland and or russia ... like photo's with hints in to see if similar to bin laden his messages at times if any and to see if i relate and to be hidden and clandestine now now i lost all and my life is really fubar ... on top of it .. away from few bro's offline all my cuteys online gone and fucked up chased off ... and they try to couple me with muslima's now the trick is to fool muslima's like i already deciphered a certain one trying to be sweet to sting and probe me, which is illegal cos no laywer and she's got sharia in her country too so she better quits it cos i got the right to ask correcting/correctness with her to make sure she wont dent or destroy her families honor and the ummah .. and such prices can go high if they arrest her espionage for russia or holland, not all is welcome there and spying is disgusting to them .. which was basically dumb from holland and russia to rip away some female friends i found for cool for several reasons ... so a snego and a kay is gone .. so i feel false like a gato ... hugable but with a knife or a pistol behind my back ready to snap at some moment .. and as long as those female friends wont come back, i may leak in legal ways and my steps as cia knows cos i got much more to bring out and to leak and my life destroyed and broken all my money gone soon my freedom? why should i not fucking do that to other people and fucking kill em or od myself? i keep thinking it'll turn better and i hate the ways they pryed around in the past ...in 10 years, a muslima a year and all my western babes gone or suddenly upset or silent and always broken or not to be undersood how and why? and i may have asperger and the rfid is confusing me so the results wont be accurate so how can i find out?
a lot turned against me but also a gaslight trick and now they want to keep me away from the usa and holland, russia is afraid of me walking off to the cia and cos kay friend gone they want to replace a lost friendship in belgium with a muslima or belgian one i will never ever respect cos i'm going to fuck her up and around (she shall pay my frustration, bear it like a cross alone in belgium they're sacks of shit mainly anyways cos i don't understand abt other lost friendships and jobs and los income for good and working wont turn me happy or kind, i'll start to backstab i know myself and i'm retired for good, i remember the dutch saying "we've lost a good spy in him" my reply: i wasn't even trying or starting lmao), so yeah all at loss and don' care lately all i do is drink like a binge sometimes and sleep lead a diffirent life i don't like .. makes it so fucking murderous boring ... nothing is good, it even leaked they are checking all my buds in a drug or narcotics operation ofc with my drunk face it leaked lol ... so they know and now they can think i'm an informer LMFAO !!! or spy like they know abt cia fbi kgb gru aivd mivd even muslims walking by hear that there lol ... i'm quite the /failspy ! so brussels knows too that i aint pesting the federal cops in aalst but it is more to tell brussels that something is illegal here with me as indication for that i want to restore my life and freedom and get to mourning after three to four years .. and strike a damage claim i have suffered.
all cos they don't want to pay a torture claim and privacy claim that i have nowhere to go but to leak as defense .. even my name and last name is attached to it so they will find me and my family if they look ... good ... is that a danger .. i did not think so but i asked freedom already and damage claim and female friends back like i said and ticket cos in belgium and in aalst ALL IS DESTROYED .. so i can't do much aside sitting at home all day like i'm bound to a chair or getting drunk or sitting behind this computer all day which bores the fuck outta me ... ! always buzzing and fuckery on my ears from the v2k (one of the first belgian military tryouts of v2k you can say, so there as good as used and depleted like a battery and most likely expect to be thrown away in the trashcan therefore i am going to get high and see where i'll end, maybe in a coma like 2014 if i had died i wouldn't have known.. so looks fine to me .. scares me a bit but once i'm on the go spiking my vein and going high i will have less fear, maybe 2 valuims on top of it... just to be happy when in haze .. )
chased cool chicks off from everywhere to replace with muslima's so i get blunted off by muslima's .. makes me sick .. and not very open for contact from now on .. so i withdraw, to some it eve takes days to reply and that means i'm slowing down and letting go and some intelligence has questions and demands .. i say fuck you now and i leak it even into islam they need and want me for it which can make me vulnerable (i play both ways cos i'm unhappy, vulnerable and perhaps dwelling into OD for myself but they can come and ask from islam but that i may do later (compass spinning ..) so if they come arrest me i may hang myself too or idk or blow the world up untill they pay me and female friends back etc .... not even in my country i am even allowed to complain cos i can press millions for a charge, they block me like i pissed already info away and that blocks untill i'm content and happy someday .. why can i leak diplomats involved as a "simple man" ... to destroy your life and when they think they can claim you they try to please you with shitty crap like an article or this or that "oh my waaaw, piss of will ya" holland and russia have fucked me all over i'd say .. and i hate if my dames get interfered ... incompetence .. my sister is afraid or starts to cry when i go from an odd loss from a female friend 4 times in 10 year ... from calm, to upset, to aggresive, to blazing upset .. even went aggressive and mad over it .. very sensitive thing .. and that i shall see to fix but ofc. the right i have lost two is the right i may get them checked out via islam to see if they where kgb or aivd involved what happens after that i don't think i will care .. they're lost .. so i mean, no looking back .. but i'll see
and i wont care what you read here .. life sucks 90% of the time .. *compass spins*