I just kinda fell through the cracks I guess. I'm not "sociable" enough to meet a lot of women and don't care enough about simply not 'being single' to force myself into social situations.
I left it up to fate and fate said: "nah dawg; you single for life".
/shrug LoL
If i were single right now id stay that way. I'm not good at relationships.
Ive been married 3 times and proposed to 7 times. In my experience and in the experiences I have witnessed with friends, men are the most gut hooked on women that are not as into them. So when dating, there is a lot of game play.....especially with the people who claim they dont "do games". Those people do games the most.
The ONE time I was super into the guy I was seeing (besides now), HE dumped ME. Im still not sure if that hurt so bad because my heart was broke or my ego was broken lol.
I always did better single. Even when I was single with kids. I have never in my life have ever gone out intentionally to meet someone to date. They just kind of crossed my path while im living.
If i didnt already have 30 plus years of a relationship with my guy, he would probably dump me too because of how in love I am with him. Leave me and go take up residence in a lesser womans friendzone.
I think men believe "hard to get" means better pay off. Like if she is super hard to get she will must be worth all that effort. Which is not all how humans work. Hard to get just means ....she isnt that into you.
Regardless if I were not with this guy I have, I absolutely do not have the energy for dealing with men who want something from me. And the less you give, the more they want. I dont even trust a man to be honest about "just sex". Like if i just wanted a physical relationship with man, he would gladly agree to the terms but eventually start treating it like a relationship and I have an over developed sense of responsibility towards people and id feel bad and go along with it. I would end up in a whole relationship with someone i just wanted to bang on a regular basis.
Id have to pretend I was madly in love with him, so he would stay distant and not want me as much lmao.
And dating women isnt much better.
My daughters love life is exhausting. I am a sort of therapist for my kids.....they share way too much with me. Just that is a lot for me. I do not miss it. The drama. The games. The ridiculousness.
