yah, i tried and when locked up too knowing something didn't make sense, i've been few times almost dead some registered and some not, lost a mate who hung himself like i wanted to try ... beam, attic, noose, if i had listened and met him that evening, odds may have changed into his life and death situation, i regret it and makes me very upset, he was a cool brother.
mostly medication here, lately in 2014 i had found the ride by snorting, injecting and swallowing .. untill i crashed in short coma, i came out of, maybe i was better dead that day cos omg, tomorrow another day ... and i get life's tired, words of my deceased father and therapy will make me raging sppner or later, people like cia need to see, when i say to return back what was mine or was busy with, it shall be that or i may come and take it or even up, period and it will only increase as i lock myself off, walls up like a retarded autist.. suicide is still in the air ... pills and alcohol is my method ..
have you ever thought to blast your brains out?
