I have a 7mm kidney stone in my ureter. It is not gonna pass on its own.
At like 2am last night my flank started hurting. Then my groin started hurting.
And while M knows aaaaallllll about my kidney stones and surgeries....having been a huge support to me through the entire ordeal since it started. Being the person I was gonna leave my daughter in the care of had I died during my nephro tube surgery (I wasn't with the guy I'm currently divorcing yet), and my emergency contact for most of my life....he has never actually SEEN me go through this.
So I tried HARD to be tough. He drug me to the hospital though and here I still am because I have to have surgery tomorrow. He stayed here until ten minutes ago. Ran and got me a phone charger and now he is headed home to cook for my kids.
I'm in horrific pain despite 2mls of diluaded and 1 ml of fentynal. I told the nurse she is free to kill me. I had to explain that I'm divorcing and my ex is trying to come up here but I don't want that and that my boyfriend was out buying my phone charger and I want him to be allowed in.
I am now my nurses favorite patient of the evening LOL
So I'll be here off and on all night and probably high on IV pain killers. No I have not went off the bean. No I have not relapsed. I'm just dying of kidney stones.