lol.. i hope not cos i've been tortured for the past ten years ... the loss and destruction where i live .. :( family got blended into espionage and it's looking bad for them .. as to leak and exposition .. that's what holland tries to do but they are corrupt and cia knows, the federal cops where i live speak scandal abt a pepijn and rob bertholee.. and something big may be waiting for holland if locked up cos that means no refugee status and a new life, or visiting my parents.. but depends on my refugee status and torture claim and only after 20 years.. and if they lock me up... i will destroy them chap.. something like a magic cloud and particles .. top priority .. i hate how holland barges in, obfuscates, blackmails my family --> emotional hurt, they don't want to see me, chicks around here and dudes, mainly chicks; look the "cali fire monster" etc etc .. cia finds this a scandal, some muslims around not gaslighted ones, see there's something wrong on me .. holland and in the past russia shall pay before i die even with a possible nuclear holocaust... and i'm looking and brainstorming for many changes in holland .. and that is at holland aimed .. if i'm locked up or become free afterwards and they know i am leaking and endangering their dutch clandestine mission.. which i cut myself out .. so a burlap sack i hope not cos i will leak people and endanger them to prove my point .. even family that got entangled to have easy access on me behind the door .. for info i bumped into from laden 2005 - 06 and some other details i knew... and i wont care .. and it's slowly spreading that the dutch are behind me, i can sense it in some places which is good... but oh.. lol your words already .. "Ever ride in a black windowless van with a burlap sack over your head by any chance? " -> that would make me press that button at holland already ..
that's why i need refugee status scott.. new life, all is blocked here .. cos i did not wanted to work for the dutch and cos i'm pesting them out and around abt info.. untill i have my financial loss back, a female friend that got chased off by slander to be replaced with muslima's online, what are they after? cos those muslima's i could get checked out and they work often with holland if not russia to get to me .. so i go for moroccan porn too while i stay to my very own preference.. and pple from holland living by the law and working for it .. trethening and blackmailing me, cutting me off from all women in belgium, all income etc etc .. nah .. i'm done with it in belgium .. and if the burlap sack appears i am willing to destroy holland.. my dachau alike experiment as radiation experiment.. why? radical? isis? al qaeda? certainly not but venomous and white hot on the inside against holland... and i'm willing to blow them up as penitence .. untill that money is there and untill they will let me go to the usa for my medical surgery and a new life and no slander or chicks gone on and offline .. cos i am starting to go rather alone again .. than i get often mad and upset and now i have hate for holland but contained .. it is basically a combination of "kicking each others shins" untill this is going to escalate .. and some have leaked as question ..and someone will get the anwar prize and that could be in holland, same ..= no torture claim and if locked up and living further in pain, i shall issue the al awlaki price to someone in holland who's was spy from aivd or was.. don't forget i have nothing in my life that's why i sit all day at home on forums.. is that life my friend? asked in all honesty?
don't see me as terrorist tho.. it is complicated and if i say no it stays no even when it turns torture.. and it's only holland i want to attack in certain some conditions and if no torture claim and new life... 10 years, i have lost ..