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I will be the first one to admit that I am not perfect or even nice. But what I am is a realist, someone who looks at equations and the science and math behind whatever it is that fancies my attention.
Wel, today I was dead wrong about a poster. This particular poster I thought had the intellect worthy of being someone I would acknowledge. Then there was a slip on his part, not a big one, but big enough to where I forcibly dragged an elephant (not Lily ) through it. That's what I do.
Anyhoo, for the last couple of days, I have been getting resistance for bringing up the fact that this site owner got Biggie's phone number from Lily, who used to be best buds with Biggie, Dove, Flea...etc. Alticus has been providing cover and trying to run interference whenever I bring this up, and literally has okayed what Bastard Factory did. Yes, I bring this up many times because it seems I'm the only one who sees what BF did as fucked up. Even more distressing is the fact that this seems to be a conspiracy between BF, Lily and Murdock. The information gleaned was only "well known" to Biggie's inner circle and to no one else, so the assumption that Biggie's info was widely known is a fabrication at best, to cover up the invasion of privacy Bastard Factory bestowed upon Biggie. Even when confronted with the admission from BF, Admin, Lily and Alticus defend that kind of behavior.
Then there's my role in all this. I take no pride, no joy, in losing e-pals and the trust of a forum owner, but I cannot stand idly by while this kind of behavior goes unchecked. I might as well have given BF Biggie's number to Bastard Factory, because I was once like you~Alticus, I would defend BF and the forum, even when the r-value of intelligence was too low to even insulate a shitty rationalization (see thread named: I have resigned my mod position). I get it, BF christened you a mod and now your usually dull e-life comes to life; you're a somebody. This entitlement you think you have is non-existent, you are Bastard Factory's meat shield. Look at this, we've all been berating each other over last 48 hours, while BF is kicking back and having a good laugh. BF is in this by proxy, but you're doing the heavy lifting. I guess what I'm saying is that I felt very betrayed and I lashed out.
About trying to bury two forums. Now anyone who believes that one single person can take down two forums, no matter how smart and pretty I am is probably not from this planet. Anyone who believes that crock of shit is either an imbecile or is delusional, either way, I want to meet that person so I can sell them a bridge on Mars. What can I say? I was hurt, I felt betrayed and used. So, I said some of the most despicable things and did some fucked up things. I was trying to mainly bring attention to the fact that I was the bad girl after everything was said and done. I did relay to BF that I was sorry for blasting him like that, but also pointed out that it was a reaction to his action. Anyways, I'm no better than anyone in this saga, the difference is I know this. I know I'm a piece of shit because of the way I treat people out here, but I've been let down soo many times that I don't have time for the bullshit anymore. Does that excuse my behavior? Absolutely not. A good sign that I agreed with the 1-year ban was me not trying to sneak back in. Sure, early on I used another account to try to answer post's regarding this very topic and I always told everyone who I was. Does that absolve me of my actions? Certainly not. There is no excuse for pming Biggie's first and last name to all 12 members here, or can I use Alticus' excuse that it was already "widely known?" Anyways, that was wrong on all levels. Like I said, I burned us all the fuck down.
Getting back on track...I guess I was wrong about wizer. Sure, he's still an annoying geriatric senior with no life, but at least he sees what I've been trying to convey. Yes, what I did was equally wrong, but everyone seems to think it was just me and if they crow about me being the one that was the antagonist in all this, people may start believing that fairy tale. Anyhoo, wizer brings up the facts in regard to what he read and was basically telling Alticus what I was trying to convey, though I deliver messages differently than him. wizer really impressed me today with telling Alticus the facts and hopefully from an outside neutral eye. I never said I was not part of the problem, but don't make corny excuses for what I did. I was really hurt. I literally spent hours upon hours hanging out here with Lily making Aryan look like a little helpless baby monkey and she goes and breaks the one rule I had for everyone...no P.I. Then BF pm's me and brags about calling Biggie. Jesus Christ, I have aligned myself with two real fucking psychos. I defended these two "people" and hurt some feelings in the name of Lily, but that got old as hell. I may not see eye-to-eye with wizer, but now I can appreciate what he has to say a little more. Now, for all of you out there saying you're just riding wizer's vaginal folds because he's making Alticus look like the uneducated stool he is. No, that's not it, if you notice, wizer's been riding my ass and trying to get under my skin for a minute. I have to give credit that wizer understands how fucked up everyone's actions were.
There...I said it. I was wrong.
Wel, today I was dead wrong about a poster. This particular poster I thought had the intellect worthy of being someone I would acknowledge. Then there was a slip on his part, not a big one, but big enough to where I forcibly dragged an elephant (not Lily ) through it. That's what I do.
Anyhoo, for the last couple of days, I have been getting resistance for bringing up the fact that this site owner got Biggie's phone number from Lily, who used to be best buds with Biggie, Dove, Flea...etc. Alticus has been providing cover and trying to run interference whenever I bring this up, and literally has okayed what Bastard Factory did. Yes, I bring this up many times because it seems I'm the only one who sees what BF did as fucked up. Even more distressing is the fact that this seems to be a conspiracy between BF, Lily and Murdock. The information gleaned was only "well known" to Biggie's inner circle and to no one else, so the assumption that Biggie's info was widely known is a fabrication at best, to cover up the invasion of privacy Bastard Factory bestowed upon Biggie. Even when confronted with the admission from BF, Admin, Lily and Alticus defend that kind of behavior.
Then there's my role in all this. I take no pride, no joy, in losing e-pals and the trust of a forum owner, but I cannot stand idly by while this kind of behavior goes unchecked. I might as well have given BF Biggie's number to Bastard Factory, because I was once like you~Alticus, I would defend BF and the forum, even when the r-value of intelligence was too low to even insulate a shitty rationalization (see thread named: I have resigned my mod position). I get it, BF christened you a mod and now your usually dull e-life comes to life; you're a somebody. This entitlement you think you have is non-existent, you are Bastard Factory's meat shield. Look at this, we've all been berating each other over last 48 hours, while BF is kicking back and having a good laugh. BF is in this by proxy, but you're doing the heavy lifting. I guess what I'm saying is that I felt very betrayed and I lashed out.
About trying to bury two forums. Now anyone who believes that one single person can take down two forums, no matter how smart and pretty I am is probably not from this planet. Anyone who believes that crock of shit is either an imbecile or is delusional, either way, I want to meet that person so I can sell them a bridge on Mars. What can I say? I was hurt, I felt betrayed and used. So, I said some of the most despicable things and did some fucked up things. I was trying to mainly bring attention to the fact that I was the bad girl after everything was said and done. I did relay to BF that I was sorry for blasting him like that, but also pointed out that it was a reaction to his action. Anyways, I'm no better than anyone in this saga, the difference is I know this. I know I'm a piece of shit because of the way I treat people out here, but I've been let down soo many times that I don't have time for the bullshit anymore. Does that excuse my behavior? Absolutely not. A good sign that I agreed with the 1-year ban was me not trying to sneak back in. Sure, early on I used another account to try to answer post's regarding this very topic and I always told everyone who I was. Does that absolve me of my actions? Certainly not. There is no excuse for pming Biggie's first and last name to all 12 members here, or can I use Alticus' excuse that it was already "widely known?" Anyways, that was wrong on all levels. Like I said, I burned us all the fuck down.
Getting back on track...I guess I was wrong about wizer. Sure, he's still an annoying geriatric senior with no life, but at least he sees what I've been trying to convey. Yes, what I did was equally wrong, but everyone seems to think it was just me and if they crow about me being the one that was the antagonist in all this, people may start believing that fairy tale. Anyhoo, wizer brings up the facts in regard to what he read and was basically telling Alticus what I was trying to convey, though I deliver messages differently than him. wizer really impressed me today with telling Alticus the facts and hopefully from an outside neutral eye. I never said I was not part of the problem, but don't make corny excuses for what I did. I was really hurt. I literally spent hours upon hours hanging out here with Lily making Aryan look like a little helpless baby monkey and she goes and breaks the one rule I had for everyone...no P.I. Then BF pm's me and brags about calling Biggie. Jesus Christ, I have aligned myself with two real fucking psychos. I defended these two "people" and hurt some feelings in the name of Lily, but that got old as hell. I may not see eye-to-eye with wizer, but now I can appreciate what he has to say a little more. Now, for all of you out there saying you're just riding wizer's vaginal folds because he's making Alticus look like the uneducated stool he is. No, that's not it, if you notice, wizer's been riding my ass and trying to get under my skin for a minute. I have to give credit that wizer understands how fucked up everyone's actions were.
There...I said it. I was wrong.
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