I have been steadily embracing more of nihilism, and I think I have finally reached the peak.
What is the purpose of life? None. We were just accidentally formed a billion years ago due 2 a freak reaction and have been evolving since. There is no great purpose behind it. Why do I continue 2 live? I will b honest, I tried to commit suicide a few months ago, my nihilism had reached such a state. But I failed and the doctors saved me, and I have managed 2 convince everyone I wasn't actually committing suicide (hopefully they won't come across this answer). And this entire incident is what led me 2 the peak of nihilism as I have said.
There is no meaning, no purpose, in suicide either. Just like I don't care about life anymore, I now also don't care about death anymore. I don't care about posting on websites anymore. Even if I changed my worldview, my life philosophy, would it really matter? No it won't! This is, I think, the peak of nihilism. A double negative, leading to a positive. The world will never look the same 2 me again, but I will not go out of my way to try and commit suicide either. One failure was enough.