The 9 to 5 is a scam to make those at the top rich and the rest of us miserable. Even those with high paying jobs and a degree are miserable.
I have no passion anymore, not for anything. I only work so that I can survive and I hate it. I just want to be a trophy wife and raise hairless cats. I've considered several other careers but nothing in particular calls to me. I can't do this for 30+ more years, i just can't.
Lol... my husband worked 7 to 3 for 50 years.. AND he broke his back in 2 places at the age of 18 in a car accident.
The Queen worked for 70 years.. 363 days a year.. I think she got Good Friday and Christmas day off.
You lost your passion for living.... you haven't given us much to work with here.
You have to create times to look forward to like small parties/dinner parties... movies... hikes and shit like that...
The other thing is when I worked, I worked for myself...
But really, catch a hard working man with the same spiritual values you have.. that is built like a brick shithouse and get him to do all the earning... you manage the house, the kids, the pets, the money unless you are a silly spendthrift then .... you need a plan B.
Not that far back we couldn't afford to go on holidays because we were stuck attending to obligations so I thought I would tour my own town... go to places only tourists go...go to restaurants I had never been to. Take pictures of the event... and create our own fun.
Do not envy the rich... they only eat more lobster than you more times... they still have to work and are stuck with obligations and arsehole friends and users.
Do not waste your youth...
There is a saying I learned from an Italian man, - "pay now and play later, OR play now and pay later.. "
Meaning if you waste your youth years while you still have vigor, you will suffer in old age...
Of course if you are planning a suicide.. don't forget to donate your organs.
;))