assuming that you aren't running some big troll and you aren't an alt- and my 20 year forum experience, incredible insight as to human dynamics and high intelligence says you're not
I was admin over at D'Outskirtz which was Biggie's forum. And I take my jobs seriously as do you. I won't go in to the details again but suffice it to say looking back on it that I was way too involved in trying to run the place properly, build traffic, keep posts on topic and shut down the trolling and spam
I invested an inordinate time, sweat, emotions, it even distracted me from my daily routine as an eye doc, no kidding. I tend to go balls to the walls when I've got a job to do, and I think you do to.