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Spanking it again.................
Wow!!!.. niiice, Swampy. Have fun and be safe :) Not sure if you want to share, but where are you going?..Looks beautiful.Finishing packing, off on my holidays tomorrow.
Currently pondering what qualifies as a "big word" in this day and age.
Having a bourbon in my boyfriends office with him while he writes an article. He is so painfully attractive when he is writing. Sitting here with a cigar all focused. Using big words. Talking about the global politcal history behind the Ukraine conflict.
All right wing and shit.
I hope he's not the sort of right winger who thinks NATO and by default, the US, were correct in being dishonourable towards Russia for decades and particularly now in Ukraine...
MS is horrible. I know a lot about it, unfortunately. I hope he has the recursive/remitting kind (RRMS) and not a chronic progressive disease course (CPMS). The good news is that he is 6 years into his diagnosis and hasn't had any major exacerbations, and there are a lot more drug therapies now than there were even 5 or 10 years ago. Also, there are many newer studies regarding the importance of diet, nutrition and exercise shown to be of immense help in staving off disease progression.I'm sitting in BFs office having a beer and watching him play WarHammer.
We spent all day in bed and he made me a chicken wrap. Now we drink.
His foot is numb so I'm worried about his neuropathy and why it's happening. He normally doesn't have full sensation in his feet. He says it feels like he has socks on all the time. But it's been annoying him enough where he is fussing about it. He never fusses.
It's always in my mind..."oh fuck is this his MS?" He was diagnosed 6 years ago and in the past 6 years he has had no signs and hasn't had much damage. He is due for his yearly MRI and I get to be there to annoy him and grill his doctor.
Shits like a boogeyman in the closet of my mind. I cried for days when he told me he has it. I don't tell him when something is bothering him that MS is my first thought but I don't need to because it's always his as well. He is terrified of ending up in a wheelchair. There is no way I'd ever leave him....if his MS starts ravaging him that's even more reason to stay.
I figured I'd be living back in Metro and be closer to him and be able to be here more so he isn't alone and I can help him more. I had a huge plot twist but I'm doing exactly what I've always wanted to do. Be here and fully available to the person who has always....without fail and without motive...been fully available and there for me all my life.
So I'm having a drink and being all emo.
MS is horrible. I know a lot about it, unfortunately. I hope he has the recursive/remitting kind (RRMS) and not a chronic progressive disease course (CPMS). The good news is that he is 6 years into his diagnosis and hasn't had any major exacerbations, and there are a lot more drug therapies now than there were even 5 or 10 years ago. Also, there are many newer studies regarding the importance of diet, nutrition and exercise shown to be of immense help in staving off disease progression.
In the end it's up to God, of course, but a loving caregiver is the greatest gift anyone suffering from this horrible disease can have, and the greatest advantage for them.
The best advice is to keep him moving.
Regards
I was in love with my best friend in high school and she got diagnosed with MS.
It turned her mind twisted and she sought to destroy anything that wasn't nailed down. By the time we were 23, I had to kick her to the curb permanently. I haven't spoken with her since even though my wife and kids have, and have visited her and her family.. because they have a family aspect to it as well, distinct from my own.
I still love her but I don't like her one bit. Nor do I like how I was with her...