I took an Uber to the beer store and back. Turned on the air conditioner because it feels 'stuffy' in here. Heating up buffalo chicken tendies in the oven and baked beans on the stove.
The same guy who started Bush's Baked Beans?My uncle is Billy Foster.... My dad was Teddy Foster.
Packing for the Oregon Coast!!!!!
Yay!!!
The AC stopped working yesterday so I'm up waiting on the AC repair man.
We were up all night. It was so fucking hot and I was so miserable the man decided to put me in the car, drive me to the 7/11 and got me ice cream. Then we went to the park in Troy where we first hung out in 1994. In the middle of the night.
I feel like absolute shit. I just had a form of hormonal birth control inserted into my body the day before yesterday and so far this is most disgusting I've ever felt in my life and the heat doesn't help one bit.
And I had the birth control convo with my daughter. She knows what it is. This was a "what kind of birth control should I think about mom?" and that made me wanna die. But this is what I wanted. I want my daughters to always talk to me.....but fuck goddamn!
I sent a Wiggles video to my oldest daughter this morning and I was crying about how we were watching this and doing all this little kid stuff and now it's just over. Just like that. And now they are adults and we talk about birth control.
My housemates kelpy puppy is pregnant now...
(I'm not the father)...
Time is just a construct....
Not only would I rather be dead than pregnant right now....but the only man I'm sleeping with has MS and his medication literally deforms his sperm. We have not even had "regular" sex yet. We have done everything else. The one time we did it he panicked and I took a Plan B to calm him down.
He is terrified of pregnancy because there will be serious and extreme birth defects. He calls them squid babies. He doesn't want to have squid babies and he knows there is absolutely NO way i would ever abort.
I would have loved to have children with him and it's kinda painful all this time was lost because neither of us ever said anything about our feelings because we didn't want to ruin our friendship. But that time is gone.....I wish I could see it as a construct. Really I do. Right now time grieves me.
He has been a really awesome father figure to my daughters and they are still getting used to NOT calling him "uncle" lol.
Why did you geTS the bannededed`???The mark of a real man is not fretting the small flynn...
Your guy probably gets that.
I am going to bed.... I took 3 sleepping tablets. That should knock me out.
Marijuana gummy bears work way better.
I hate marijuana with a passion. You keep the gummy bears....lol
Paying a pile of medical bills. There is no way to make this fun. :,(
My healthcare is being provided by my huge piles of money, honey. (and a purchased healthcare plan)