X'sus's thread of introspection ...

[Lokmar]

I just lost my shit in fronna' the neighbors.
My one HUGE ganja plant, my pride and joy a strain called Bruce Banner, STOLEN ! the fuckers just ripped branches off, IT'S NOT EVEN READY ! ffs I would have shared it , surely
and as if that wasn't demoralizing enough my Bike is broke, fucked if I know .. it's electrical
went to charge it and NO red light ... FUCK MAN, with all the other shit goin' on I broke down like a pussy ,, like a ... like a LOKtard .
threw shit all over and now guess what, I have to clean it ..FUCK !

Gimme your addy and I'll feed em some brake fluid, faggit ass.

You that mad bro ??

Huh? I didnt get my shit all fucked up by niggers. I'm just trying to help em out of their misery. If I was mad, I'd scribble, "fuk you niggers" in brake fluid on your lawn, faggit!

No you wouldn't
You would be to a'scared cause yer' a puss puss pussay ! LOL

Lets have that address faggit.

 

[X]

I just lost my shit in fronna' the neighbors.
My one HUGE ganja plant, my pride and joy a strain called Bruce Banner, STOLEN ! the fuckers just ripped branches off, IT'S NOT EVEN READY ! ffs I would have shared it , surely
and as if that wasn't demoralizing enough my Bike is broke, fucked if I know .. it's electrical
went to charge it and NO red light ... FUCK MAN, with all the other shit goin' on I broke down like a pussy ,, like a ... like a LOKtard .
threw shit all over and now guess what, I have to clean it ..FUCK !

Gimme your addy and I'll feed em some brake fluid, faggit ass.

You that mad bro ??

Huh? I didnt get my shit all fucked up by niggers. I'm just trying to help em out of their misery. If I was mad, I'd scribble, "fuk you niggers" in brake fluid on your lawn, faggit!

No you wouldn't
You would be to a'scared cause yer' a puss puss pussay ! LOL

Lets have that address faggit.

I'm sure there's a nice veiny prick to munch on much closer to you LoktardO

 

[Lokmar]

I just lost my shit in fronna' the neighbors.
My one HUGE ganja plant, my pride and joy a strain called Bruce Banner, STOLEN ! the fuckers just ripped branches off, IT'S NOT EVEN READY ! ffs I would have shared it , surely
and as if that wasn't demoralizing enough my Bike is broke, fucked if I know .. it's electrical
went to charge it and NO red light ... FUCK MAN, with all the other shit goin' on I broke down like a pussy ,, like a ... like a LOKtard .
threw shit all over and now guess what, I have to clean it ..FUCK !

Gimme your addy and I'll feed em some brake fluid, faggit ass.

You that mad bro ??

Huh? I didnt get my shit all fucked up by niggers. I'm just trying to help em out of their misery. If I was mad, I'd scribble, "fuk you niggers" in brake fluid on your lawn, faggit!

No you wouldn't
You would be to a'scared cause yer' a puss puss pussay ! LOL

Lets have that address faggit.

I'm sure there's a nice veiny prick to munch on much closer to you LoktardO

Dont want your moms lawn fucked up, ehh faggit? She get mad the last time?

 

[X]

Soak me through till I am numb,
So that I feel nothing, not pain,
No, not even the rain,
You offer me as consolation,
Tears for tears I cannot shed,
And thunder for my frustration.
Soak me through till I feel hollow,
So that when the sun rises in the eternity of tomorrow,
I can stand to let it fill my unlocked chest with sunshine,
My tombstone traded for a shrine,
An ode to life.

 

[X]

Not my wordz, just hits the feels

 

[X]

I learned yesterday that fools were calling me a fool
I was weak and started to believe them ... once again SHE picked me up from my face
today is a diff day, a diff me ... today is baseball bat meet cranium day should they persist

 

[X]

Stay real, stay loyal
or stay the fuck away from me

 

[Omnipotent]

They left my other 3 plants, what the fuck is that ?

They'll come back for them. You're going to lose your crop.

 

[X]

They left my other 3 plants, what the fuck is that ?

They'll come back for them. You're going to lose your crop.

picked it the other day ... took to sleeping in the cat shed
no one was getting what was left
2 pounds plus of the sticky
was a very cold morning when I picked it, I froze my hands, almost my wiener too when I went for a whiz ...

 

[X]

Hi
Something at this moment, a fuzzy sorta' thing, not DilFs wee wee more a feeling ... of complete bliss, maybe it's these 'shrooms.
But I feel compelled to say I like all of you, even the ones I call faggOts .
The ones I leave gripping the keybored in frustration, I am humbly sorry and promise from this moment forth, X has pissed 'is last spot upside your foreheads .

reel talk !

 

[X]

Have you guys aver tried shrooms ?
Like not spaced the frig oot .. but micro dosing, I went for the coolest fall colors ride yesserday and passed the licker shop like I didn't even know they had beer in there .
.. the colors of the trees en masse like that .. the sheer volume of color CRANKED the fuck up to way past 10
my story is rough my neighborhood is tough and I still sport greatness when I'm out to crush .
yeh the colors, freaked me out to the point I hadda' get out of there, but the Orange and Red NEVER endeded .. FACK !
it did tho' .. at the likker shop where I bought a beer and laughed at myself

 

[X]

To Love a Rescuer....
To love a rescuer you must love all of them. You must love the scars covering their body from panicked and hurt animals they were trying to help. You must love their fractured heart, that has been broken so many times they no longer even take the time to mend the pieces.
To love a rescuer, you must embrace their grit and determination, and know that although they fight a war they can never win, they can and do win a few battles. You must love the tears they will shed over those they lost. You must give them comfort that they refuse to accept, as they blame themselves for things they could have never foreseen.
To love a rescuer you must acknowledge the rage they feel towards the world at times, and know that anger is driven by a love of life too few have. You must give them space and room to cry and mourn for the losses that others have caused out of carelessness or cruelty.
To love a rescuer you must understand their passion to heal and save is a calling, not a choice. You must accept that to save animals is part of their soul and without that they could never be happy.
To love a rescuer you must be patient. You must accept their work comes first. They will forgo sleep, forgo food, forgo their life for animals in need. They will work tirelessly until their body and mind fail them completely and they cannot go on.
To Love a rescuer, you must be strong. You must not be threatened by their focus and love of animals. You must accept that the things you love about them, the strength and convictions and loyalty are also what drives their sense of duty to animals in need; you cannot have one without the other.
To love a rescuer you must never ask them to choose.

 

[Adam Hitler]

Why don't you have an avatar?

 

[X]

I do Aryan
Avi's represent imo what you are ..
I dwell in a loveless place, my heart is black with an inextinguishable flame of hatred ..

 

[Adam Hitler]

Fucks sake. Are you still pining after your escaped gerbil?

 

[X]

No man
life seems to have hit me square in the face, I've led a pretty uneventful life as far as losing people
it all ends soon, and the thing is ..I don't know if I can be the man I have to be ..
I am navigating this new world alone, siblings are a fucking JOKE I am truly ashamed to admit .. tucked tail and ran like bitches

 

[Adam Hitler]

Obviously I don't know your personal circumstances, but you sound depressed as fuck.

All I can say is, if you're being genuine, seek some kind of help. Life fucks us all in the ass at times, but it doesn't necessarily mean the end.

 

[X]

Thank you
you really have to stop humanizing yourself sir
You make me ashamed of some of the things said .
you're allright ......


I've been offered help and showed at the office and left .. the likker store is prettier

 

[X]

'the end'

it seems like a place this pain dare not go
I welcome it

 

[Adam Hitler]

Booze numbs emotional pain, but it's only temporary.

If you can't manage to overcome it yourelf, you need an intervention.

 

[X]

My biggest fear EVER !!
FUCKING EVER ..
It would appear I am weak .

 

[Adam Hitler]

Upto you bro, but you say you're unhappy and have kids in your life, grown up or not...

No need to go under.