Hello. My name is Flynn.

[Adam Hitler]

No, not at all annoying. Puzzling is the word I would use.

Yet you still regularly do it...

 

[Lily]

Yet you still regularly do it...

Yeah, that doesn't impact me.

 

[X]

As if you mofos would behave any differently if I did that. Get the fuck outta here with your bullshit.

It’s just that we do it better (;

 

[Flynn]

He got pneumonia last fall and spent 5 days in the hospital and I was there every minute between work....running home to take the dog out...and going right back.

That's soo scary. Not knowing or hoping he doesn't get any worse, and all your thoughts are all about him. Makes it kind of hard to concentrate on work. Makes it hard to do anything except want to be by his side 24/7. Yeah, it's double hard going through the emotional and physical variance that comes with worrying, and extra chores.

I always feel like...what if this virus somehow triggers the MS and we wake up and he is paralyzed? Or if he has been out of touch for longer than usual while I'm working...my mind is like "he had a seizure. Yep. He had a seizure in the SHOWER and got knocked out falling and had a heart attack"

Completely irrational and I never say this stuff out loud because if I'm thinking it, he is definitely thinking it. And my daughters are thinking it.

Living life like that isn't and shouldn't be the way people live. I can understand what you're going through. Your/our mind is our worst enemies at times. We come up with the worst thing that can happen, versus reality when we all think like that. We all have done it at one point or another.

No, it's not irrational to worry about losing one of the few things you love in this life. I can very well empathize with you. Living in constant fear of the worst case scenario isn't going to make your man any healthier, and make you less crazy about all of this.

I wouldn't know where to start with any kind of advice, but I will say then you both should live each day like it's your last.

It sucks. Thank God he hasn't had any issues or bad MRIs. So the odds he will live his whole life healthy are good. Except they say it's entirely possible it can just "kick in" one day. And there isn't fuck all we can do about it. It probably won't. But it could. That's kinda how we are left with it. It's a boogeyman living in the closet.

A lot of the times we can totally forget he even has it, which a huge luxury many others with MS do not have. So I'm grateful for that.

It could be a whole hell of a lot worse and I thank the Lord all the time that it isn't.

Oh Dove, it could be much worse. I'm sure you've seen much worse in your travels.

I guess you guys just need to appreciate each day you guys have together, even the trying times, because those are the binds that tie you two together. Just enjoy your time together, who knows what tomorrow, next week, next month or even next year brings. Forgetting is nice some times, for a minute. Because you're in that perfect place where you see your man smiling, and you feel your heart flutter. Or maybe it's how he talks to people in a way most can't. The only thing you need to forget is that he has something he neither asked for or controls.

I guess we're here to make memories. We should be doing that everyday. Just my opinion.

 

[Dove]

That's soo scary. Not knowing or hoping he doesn't get any worse, and all your thoughts are all about him. Makes it kind of hard to concentrate on work. Makes it hard to do anything except want to be by his side 24/7. Yeah, it's double hard going through the emotional and physical variance that comes with worrying, and extra chores.



Living life like that isn't and shouldn't be the way people live. I can understand what you're going through. Your/our mind is our worst enemies at times. We come up with the worst thing that can happen, versus reality when we all think like that. We all have done it at one point or another.

No, it's not irrational to worry about losing one of the few things you love in this life. I can very well empathize with you. Living in constant fear of the worst case scenario isn't going to make your man any healthier, and make you less crazy about all of this.

I wouldn't know where to start with any kind of advice, but I will say then you both should live each day like it's your last.



Oh Dove, it could be much worse. I'm sure you've seen much worse in your travels.

I guess you guys just need to appreciate each day you guys have together, even the trying times, because those are the binds that tie you two together. Just enjoy your time together, who knows what tomorrow, next week, next month or even next year brings. Forgetting is nice some times, for a minute. Because you're in that perfect place where you see your man smiling, and you feel your heart flutter. Or maybe it's how he talks to people in a way most can't. The only thing you need to forget is that he has something he neither asked for or controls.

I guess we're here to make memories. We should be doing that everyday. Just my opinion.

You are exactly right.

 

[Lily]

Thanks. I get a very real anxiety over this. 3 people we knew from high school in our age group just died over the past 5 years. So it made me nuts.

A few years ago I didn't hear from him for a full 24 hours and I lived 3 hours away. So I almost called the cops LOL.

He takes good care of himself. He gets cardio checks up every other year. He is in good health aside from having MS...which Thankfully has not been much of anything. He was diagnosed on 2016.....and the only issue he has is he has very mild loss of sensation in his feet. He says it feels like he always has socks on.

But he is a big guy. 6'7....390 and it makes me worried he will drop dead from some freak weird heart thing that giants get. And the whole MS thing for me feels like a boogeyman hiding in the closest that MIGHT just jump out one day and vastly change our lives or..it won't. No one really knows what could happen.

I'm just a nut is what it boils down to. I don't like hover over him making sure he is alive but if I don't hear from him in a reasonable amount of time I freak out. It's only happened twice. That's how reliable his contact is. We ALWAYS text chat when I'm settling in at work.

And it WOULD happen after a kiss like that. Jesus. I bought him a Gatorade and I'm cooking dinner tonight lol

His bmi puts him squarely in the obese category. And you body shame. Funny.

 

[Seamajor]

Tommy Boy... Stop playing with your dinghy.

Unless you want to drink your own rewards via your nutsack.

Hola?

Sounds like you thirsty?

 

[Seamajor]

You know you’re total shit when Admin is more entertaining to fuck with.

How about you Tractor ass? You can’t take it.