Does your next Husband fondle guns too?
He taught me how to shoot, yeah.
You don't understand how scared I am. 30 years this person has always been there. He knew me before I was attacked. So he knew ME. I dated and broke up with him 20 years ago and regretted it. And I never crossed that line again because I cannot ever lose this person. I would literally die.
I realize my attachment style is probably fucked but just the thought of him not being in my life makes my blood run cold and my chest feel like it's being crushed. I have lost relationships because I refuse to stop talking to him.
And now I've let it get romantic and I should be happy right? All I've done today is cry and freak.
Please do not make this a joke. I feel like my whole life is caving in.