There's no such thing.
You're just a gay man who has abused their body and likes to cross-dress.
There is a very good argument for internalized homophobia presenting as transgender.
I recently saw this video that had "Christian" parents who had this little biological boy. When he was 4 they started picking up signals that he may grow up to be gay. So they set about an abusive form of conversation therapy where he got into trouble everytime he went for what's considered "girl stuff".
Never mind the fact that little boys will play with "girl stuff" like baby dolls, dress up clothes...et.
When it became clear to them that wouldnt work? They got this boy to say he was really a girl and they began transing him. Because they figured they'd stop from being a gay male....and turn him into a hetro woman.
And these people should be in prison. And they should face church discipline. But instead this abuse is applauded.
A lot of young lesbians who are just tom boys are now getting sucked into the gender cult and having their breasts removed at young ages. Its ghastly.